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So yeah, I'm home.  And it's all.....empty.  Obviously, it is nice, if a little surreal, to be home, but I'm struggling to adapt to a place where I can't just walk 100yards and find my friends, to tell them my latest bit of news and watch a video, and I can't spend all day in my PJs if I want to (although I've managed it so far today!) and where my mess can't remain my mess if I want it to.  Also, wierdly, the floors and ceilings feel like theyre in the wrong places, the wrong level....I can't  really explain it - maybe it's just my out-of-sorts status. 

But I can't be entirely miserable - it's not in my nature, and granted, last night was amazing...Jools Holland and Lulu at the Royal Albert Hall, - a musical high, in the company of Will and Emily, which I will never forget.  But I spent the entire concert thinking "I can't wait to tell Ian/ Olly/ Isla/ Caitlin/ Simon/ Harriet etc about this", only to realise I couldn't, plus the day as a whole was slightly tainted by the fact that I'd spent the morning blubbling my eyes out.  How embarrassing for me.  I don't think my parents were too impressed...."Welcome back home darling!  Does it feel nice to be back?"  ....*Verity doesn't stop crying, is no help in unpacking and retreats to her room for hours.*

 

Funfun.


(On the plus side, I'm loving having the Sunday newspapers on hand again....Have spent the day in bed reading the television pages and the reviews!)

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On December 3rd, 2006 06:05 pm (UTC), membug commented:
See, I'm looking forward to coming home. Sort of. Though I will miss being able to knock on doors and people be there and I will miss being able to go out with no risk of someone stabbing you...

However, by the time I get home I won't have seen Sam for eleven weeks. I think seeing him will probably stop me being sad at all lol. Which is about the only good thing about having been away from him so long. The sadness of missing uni friends will hopefully not occur, as I'm seeing them all over the hols anyway and my bestest is coming to stay I think.

Plus I'm rather sadistically looking forward to the inevitable "Why my uni is better than yours" competitions/fights that will be going on with our home chums.
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On December 3rd, 2006 08:12 pm (UTC), sorcerorsock commented:
YOU DO REALISE WE CAN ABUSE YOU ON LIVEJOURNAL TOO RIGHT?
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On December 3rd, 2006 08:30 pm (UTC), titty_thomas replied:
Shut up Anna! All this mean commentage may be highly amusing for you all, but it isn't making me any happier to be away from Keble.

Anyway, you'll understand when your uni *finally* (in what, a month's time?) chucks you out for the hols....or maybe you won't, cos by that point everyone will be home anyway. But think about that bit of the Summer holidays when everyone else is away and you're not. Then add the fact that you've just got back from the most amazing holiday of your life and made some really great friends while there, who live in other countries, hours and hours away. Then add crappy weather and the fact your parents keep trying to make you tidy your room. Then you may understand how I feel. Maybe.
On December 3rd, 2006 08:31 pm (UTC), sorcerorsock replied:
Two weeks :D

We thought the attention might make you feel better! Come on msn and I'll be nicer I promise.
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On December 3rd, 2006 08:34 pm (UTC), titty_thomas replied:
Sorry for the rant...it's just that I'm far too tired for my own good (all my fault...rather a lot of alcohol-fuelled late nights in 8th week) and it's a bit of a sore subject with me. I'll be online in a sec.
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On December 3rd, 2006 09:53 pm (UTC), ruledandmargin commented:
Oh, Cardiff's no better than Maidenhead, I'm sure. I went into town to meet ms_velvet and reassure her and wish her luck etc, and then bumped into another friend in town, but booo, there's no Verity living four staircases away from me, there's no Caitlin at the end of a free phone-line, there's no college husband to go out on dates with...

I'm sure it'll get better, though. These two weeks are the best to do work in - just see it like that.

And thanks for calling earlier - it really brightened up this eerily quiet day.
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On December 3rd, 2006 10:41 pm (UTC), titty_thomas replied:
It was my pleasure. If I can't pop round and see you every day, then I sure as hell hope to get to speak to you one way or another most days. I don't care if this gets annoying in the extreme- I miss you horribly and I need my Ian time. To that end, you'd better be coming on MSN soon laddie! (and that's not a comment, that's an ORDER!) Not to mention coming to stay asap!

How is ms_velvet doing? I bet she'll have a whale of a time at interviews. I'm really rather jealous about it - she gets to be at Oxford, and I don't. Though it probably wouldn't be the same without everyone there. Just like Maidenhead isn't the same without all my school friends a short drive away. This really is a horrid limbo world we've found ourselves in, and it sucks. And don't give me any of that crap about work. I know for a fact that I won't be doing any of it until 0th week, probably not until I'm back at Oxford. I can try and start it, but I only work in crisis mode, as well you know! (and while we're on that topic, thanks again for putting up with me when I'm in the aforementioned "crisis mode"...I really do go rather insane at those times, and you truly have been my rock on several occasions.)

Anyway...I'm rabbiting(sp?) and there's nothing more embarrassing than a gushing reply comment that's longer than the entry itself!
I hope you have a great time over the next few days, and I'll speak to you really, really soon, hopefully. (I'll have all my fingers and toes crossed, despite how hard it'll make things like eating, typing and driving!)

I miss you lots and lots and lots, Love you ever so,
Vxxx
(Why am I writing this like an email? This lonliness thing really is screwing me up!)
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On December 3rd, 2006 10:42 pm (UTC), titty_thomas replied:
Yup...i just checked...my comment is longer than my original entry. How shameful.


Oh well, verbosity was never my thing! :p
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On December 3rd, 2006 10:48 pm (UTC), titty_thomas replied:
Oh, and when I said Laddie, I meant Boyo...of course.

And while we're on that:
"All I want for Christmas is you....BOYO!" That was a fun evening, even if Love Actually sucks!
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On December 5th, 2006 12:15 am (UTC), ruledandmargin replied:
I'm just a simple valley(uh) boyo.
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On December 5th, 2006 12:09 am (UTC), ruledandmargin replied:
Heehee, I love the little "Vxxx" ending. It really is an email. I just wrote an email to THE BURSAR, on that note. My first frightening environment duty. Oh, I really ought to get on with the big things.
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On December 5th, 2006 12:29 am (UTC), titty_thomas replied:
Ian: Winner of Mr Wales Environment 2006. Maybe.
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On December 5th, 2006 12:30 am (UTC), titty_thomas replied:
Killing all the sheep in Wales would seriously cut down on Carbon Emissions, so I'm told.
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On December 3rd, 2006 09:53 pm (UTC), membug commented:
Did you not miss your family and stuff though? Although I guess Oxford is really near home anyway so you maybe saw them quite a bit?
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On December 3rd, 2006 10:22 pm (UTC), titty_thomas replied:
Not really. I saw my parents every couple of weeks or so, but only had one bout of homesickness, and that wasn't until 6th/7th week and was only cos I was ill and had a huge essay crisis. I just cope really well away from home...I always have.
On December 3rd, 2006 10:25 pm (UTC), membug replied:
Yeah see I guess that makes a lot of difference, I saw my parents once and that was interrupted a lot with rowing and stuff so I can't wait to get home lol. But I think really if it wasn't for Sam I'd be more upset about leaving here for the hols.
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On December 3rd, 2006 10:44 pm (UTC), titty_thomas replied:
I think I'd feel rather differently about it all if I had a Sam back home. Well, I do have one. But he's my cat. And although he is a wonderful creature, he's not quite my soulmate and so-on. Though he is a pretty good conversationalist.
On December 3rd, 2006 10:48 pm (UTC), membug replied:
Hahaha. Marry a cat. Hehehe. That amuses me.

Livejournal is weird...it only emails me about half your comments inreply to mine..not all of them. Most odd.
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On December 3rd, 2006 10:50 pm (UTC), titty_thomas replied:
How very odd. Bad eljay is clearly trying to screw with our relationship.
On December 4th, 2006 12:44 pm (UTC), membug replied:
Speaking of cats there is an insane one howling outside my window. I think it wants to be a student.
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On December 4th, 2006 03:16 pm (UTC), titty_thomas replied:
Everyone should want to be a student. Being a student is bloody amazing!
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On December 3rd, 2006 10:42 pm (UTC), coralia13 commented:
I think it takes time to adjust to any change as dramatic as living situation. Hopefully you'll find yourself feeling more comfortable at home in a week or so. Until then, feel free to email me with any little (or big) details of your days. I'd love to hear any and all of them! (I miss you, too, you see!) Big Keble hugs!
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